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I like these photos because I look startled and confused, which is essentially how I always look. I put together
these photographs in a clever way. The black and white set is a mirror reversal of the colour roll.
You see, whenever you look in a mirror you're seeing the reverse image of yourself, so not unlike
hearing your own voice, the whole world sees a different "you" than the image you see in your
reflections. Because they're reversed, the black and white images represent fairly accurately how I
see myself. The colour images are how the world actually sees me.
So now you know how I look. I immensely dislike photos of myself, but at least having full control of the shots I am not utterly horrified by how these pictures look. I've been feeling really unattractive and hopeless lately, which is another inspirational element in my sudden need to have my picture taken -- a kind of desensitization if you will. I also wanted to objectify myself into a very visual, physical object, different from the sensitive, introspective figure which all too often is overly beautified by well-meaning observers. And, OK, I have the hope that someday I shall be thought of as "cute." But if I'm ugly, then I'm ugly, and the whole world should see me for who I am, in as accurate a way as possible. What follows is a gallery of people who are supremely important to my life -- most of them have entries in my cast of characters, and they are posted with reference to their snivel pseudonyms. So far featured are Broken, Clorinda, Charlotte, Caira, Cruinne, Corben, my purty friend Dorothy, Johnny (my mentor), and my two brothers -- Michael and Scott. Most recently, of course, is the long-awaited addition of my sweet friend Mélanie. More will inevitably follow. My sister is rather more leery of photography. You can also see a picture of one of my treefrogs, these creatures being my heart's delight. I never thought I'd have a webpage featuring excessively large photographs of my pets, since this is the kind of error that is actually up there in the annals of "how to write a really awful website." Aw, it's all good. They're especially cute frogs, and how many websites can boast about having pictures of something like that. |
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